I used to be a fantastically outgoing person. I used to be busy all the time and always on the go. I’m not too sure when that changed, but it has…drastically. And it’s not good for me. I’ve become that person that I never wanted to be. I’m the person who is alone more often than not, to the point where it truly wears me out to be around a lot of people for too long. It’s scary because I’m going to HAVE to be outgoing when I get to Chicago. I will have to get out of this funk and start making new friends. To be honest, that’s the scariest part of this whole move. I feel like in some ways I’ve forgotten how to be a friend, how to be social.

In the next few months I’m going to make myself get out of my comfort zone. I’m going to make myself invite people over. I’m going to go out whenever I’m invited, no matter what. I know I need time to recharge, but I’ve had enough of being alone. It’s not as important as relationships. And I already feel like I’ve lost too many relationships to count…I can’t sacrifice those I have left. So here’s to discovering the old me….I’ve really missed her!

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